Friday, January 1, 2010
2010's resolutions
First and foremost, I'd like to wish everyone a very happy new year! Today marks the first day of 2010. A brand new year, a fresh new beginning! May you have a smooth-sailing year ahead!

At the end of every year, I'll spend some time to think. Allowing myself to really visualize each & every thing which took place in that particular year, before a new year begins. At the same time, I'll definitely mark down those dates when certain events occurred. Be it trivial or major, whether it was something sweet or a worst nightmare, as long as the memories have made me learn a lesson, leaving me a very deep impression, giving me an unforgettable experience, I'd make sure I do some reflections and from there, to set new year's resolutions.

I'm not gonna pen down every event which left me good/bad memories, because there were too many to list! I'll just state down my new year's resolutions. And I'll make sure I really do it this time, instead of just writing down for the sake of penning down new year's resolutions and not doing it!

1. MONEY
- Spend less, save more!
- Strictly no taking of cabs unless there's no more bus/train services available!
- Take public transports like bus/MRT
- Working out on my budget before spending any or how on unnecessary stuff or less important items!
- Do not any or how borrow money to just anyone! (It doesn't really matter how long it takes the person to return the money or whether he's returning it or not. The main concern is, it ruins the relationship of the two parties involved.)

2. PUNCTUALITY
- Never ever be late for work, again!
- Wake up early to prepare & quit being dilly-dally!

3. QUIT SMOKING
- Two packets a day = $$$$$ fly away = less money to spend = even lesser money to save!
- High risk of getting cancer = die faster
- Increase in non-smoking areas, which means if I smoke at restricted smoking areas, I'll risk getting fined which results in less money to spend & then, even lesser money to save!
- Tendency to litter is common due to me being lazy to search for a rubbish chute or walk a short distance to throw the butt after smoking & hence, increase the risks of me getting fined!

4. QUIT VULGARITIES
Each time I open my mouth, I never fail to start/end my speech with even one-word vulgarity. Shane calls me an 'ah lian' as he said he had never ever met someone who curses so much like me, all day-long, non-stop for 24/7 and even at the slightest thing, when I'm not mad! Even my colleagues & customers were appalled by the infinite number of times I rattled obscenities at work! I can't imagine ten years down the road when Shane sees me & calls me an 'ah lian' again! Hahaha. Hence, I really gotta change this very bad habit of mine!

5. ANGER MANAGEMENT
- Control my temper.
- Always keep my cool & don't any or how blow my top.
- Don't raise a ruckus. (Just take it easy & think it over whether it's worth getting mad over it.)
- Vent my frustrations by telling it to my close ones, not creating a big hoo-ha.

6. MIND MY OWN BUSINESS
- Keep my comments to myself.
- Quit poking my nose into people's affair or offering to help. (It doesn't pay to be nice. Some past incidents clearly proved so. I was called a 'busybody' & worst, I, myself, got into trouble! So much for being helpful, yeah? Therefore, I'm not gonna be a kind soul anymore!)

7. HEALTH ISSUES
- Cut down on booze. (I don't wanna suffer from sore throats or bad coughs anymore!)
- Sleep early. (I normally knock off at 1am or 2am, which means the earliest timing I get to tuck into bed is thirty to forty-five minutes after knocking off. So, I must hit the sheets straight upon reaching home after work to have adequate rest! And another thing is, I don't want my facial condition to worsen with all those pimples popping out due to lack of sleep!)
- Less junk foods/oily foods/fastfood! (To prevent myself from falling ill or gaining weight!)

8. FAMILY
- Spend more time with Daddylove, Mommylove & younger brother.
- Visit my elder brother twice a month without fail. (Two visits per month and I only visited him once last month :-( All due to my forgetfulness to call up the Prison Booking Centre to make a booking & I couldn't get a slot at the very last minute due to Christmas & New Year Eve as it was already fully booked! I caused Mommylove to be very upset and was so mad at myself. Am still feeling very guilty now!)
- Don't be rude at Daddylove & Mommylove. (Because of me being short-tempered, I tend to talk back at both of them. Besides, I can't stand it when they start to nag, though I know it's for my own good. Therefore, I always show my dismay by displaying a black face or answering back at a very rude manner.)

9. FRIENDS
I've many friends, but only a few close & good ones. Through the years, I've made new friends but never have I forgotten the old ones. Yes, I did quarrel with some of them. But eventually, we patched things up & the friendship is still counting on. I'm very thankful to have the few girls and boys by my side all these while. I truly appreciate the love, care & concern I got from them. I should learn how to see who's true and who's not, because I've been too trusting that I literally got stabbed at my back unknowingly. Several events took place and I was warned not to be so naive anymore. Indeed, I was taken aback when I learnt that some whom I regarded as close ones were actually making use of me! I was like a fool, being back-stabbed and maligned for saying/doing things I didn't. I was really upset and disappointed when I found out about it but I didn't make any confrontations as I didn't wanna blow things up. I was really in dilemma when it struck me so hard & I couldn't help but wonder what I've done to deserve all these! Anyhow, let bygones be bygones. I shall not be so silly as to believe anyone just like that. I really have to be mindful with who I mix with, so as not to be taken advantage of so easily.

XOXO,
Justina Lim
@ 6:11 PM



Flashbacks
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